Four am… the question in my mind is whether I made a mistake. I thought I knew better how to handle some of these tough situations, but I don’t. I thought I knew what I wanted from life, but I don’t. The escapist in me want to be on the sparkling water, seeking serenity. In the end, I decided that I will stick it out just a bit longer. It’s hard but he needs it more than me. I want to live through the uneasiness just to see how far love carries me this time. I don’t fall in love “on demand.” Since I’m in it, I trust life will show grace to those who believe in it.